Non duality author Robin Craig Clark
At the tender age of twelve, I began to experience what would be later termed, “mystical or spiritual experiences.” My visions and knowledge of these visions disturbed my family and teachers. Quickly, I was taken off to a child psychologist for assessment and I soon realized I would be spending time away from my family and school to be probed and studied. I immediately returned to “normal” and nothing more was mentioned again.
Eight years on, just turning twenty, the experiences started over again, but I was able to keep them to myself this time. There were no words for what was happening to me. There are not meant to be words. Then the experiences stopped and for another five years I delved into self inquiry — searching every religion and every spiritual path, but, to be honest, I felt alone, often frightened and full of uncertainty about my life and where I belonged. I found no permanent answers and could not fit in with the world. I felt estranged; in a place I did not belong. I became antisocial, alienated and I struggled to hang on to my own self preservation only to succumb to hopelessness over my own dire situation. I didn’t fit in with this world but neither did I belong elsewhere. I longed for those “experiences” to return again, for they gave me such a feeling of peace and quietude. My mind was now like a turbulent sea with no land in sight.
One night, I found myself having climbed up on top of a very high water tower peering down some thirty meters and wondering if the pain was all worth it. Do I drop?
Something did drop. Sitting there on the ledge with my personal story, my struggles, my pain, this “I am” — it all simply fell away. Suddenly…no more me. There was just a sense of being. A cool breeze, the night sky above, the earth below and a oneness of utter completeness. I smiled. A veil had lifted. My mind’s illusion of my self no longer was there. Just peace and serenity.
Twenty years on, after graduating from the Oceanic Institute of Classical Homeopathy in Australia, I began putting down on paper what all this has meant to me. The Garden has become the epitome of all my experiences — the mysticism, the searching, the struggling, the dark night of the soul and finally the return to a simple state of oneness I call home.
Five more years pass by and now I finally realize there are others like me! Others, by which I mean, no-one. Non duality. Just beautiful souls expressing their aliveness.
So there is belonging. It is the allowing of what is. You just need to drop your story!
Robin Craig Clark
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